Had to do what was best for Rycher

On April 4, I made the decision to not allow the suffering of my male pug Rycher to even begin. I've always said that I wasn't going to be like most people and keep him hanging on because I didnt want to let go. I've never understood why people do that. But I do now. Essentially what I did was took his pain and brought it on to myself. I thought I was ready to do that. Man was I wrong. It literally brought me to my knees. Its now been almost 2 months and its still very raw. Some people say I did it to soon and some days I question it myself. But I spent everyday for the past ten years with him and I know I made the right decision for RYCHER. Not for me, not for anyone else. For Rycher. I hope I never have to do that again. It would be nice if they always died of natural causes at home in their sleep. But if that means they have to suffer to get there I will make the same decision again. I still have my females Rylee and Cassie who I thought would help make the loss a little easier. WRONG. It dosnt. But I'm glad I still have them. Built Rycher a nice box and gave him a good burial and said goodbye. Man how I miss him right now. Thank You for this website and allowing me to ramble on incoherantly.

Thank you everyone for all the kind words. It was wrong of me to say that my females havnt helped me through this loss. Honestly I was one of those people that would say "OMG its just a dog." But once it was one of mine my eyes were opened. We are doing the things again that we did when they were puppys. And I now have so much appreciation for every day we get to spend outdoors in the sun. And my relationship with them has grown even stronger. I am realizing that even though Rycher was one of those dogs that come around once in a lifetime, Rylee and Cassie are unique and beautiful in there own way. I will never take that for granted again, EVER. Thanks all.

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Comment by Laura Russell on June 1, 2009 at 6:15pm
I loss a special girl this spring, so I feel your loss. We are so much more compassionate with our animals. We try to not let them suffer even though it breaks the heart to let them go. Your boy will be waiting at the Rainbow Bridge for you. He's at peace now. You are a special person to be strong enough to let him go. Take care.
Comment by Matt on May 27, 2009 at 1:35pm
Thank You Kindly
Comment by Helena Brown on May 27, 2009 at 5:45am
Matt, You have all our sympathy. Previously we had two Pugs Henry and Angus. They were Uncle and Nephew. We got Henry in 1990 and Angus in 1991. Angus was the least strong of the pair of them and he was prone to lumps and bumps, he also lost his sight, we thought that this was due to the eye damage that he had sustained when he was younger. In April of 2002, one evening he had a major fit which necessitated a trip to the emergency vet. The next day our own Vet prescribed very strong drugs which they hoped would stop the fitting, it did not and I took the same decision to have PTS. I loved him, he was my baby, but he had no dignity, he was not aware of where he was and it was not fair to him. I have never regretted what I did, but I would not be human if I never questioned it. The drugs should have worked but they were not, he was still fitting. He was 11 years and 6 months old and he had a great life, he had fun, he travelled with us all over Scotland and Ireland. A few years later we had to make the same decision with Henry who having reached 14 years and 10 months and was suffering from Congestive Heart Failure, he had reached the end of his life and though it was with even more reluctance we had to also put him to sleep. This was a different thing for us as he had most definitely reached the end, as he could not either ly down or stand up. We treasured both of them and we will never forget them, Hektor came along last year, a totally different kettle of fish, which we wanted. He has a large personality, but it is his own, treasure your girls and I hope that you get your wish for a natural death for them when the time comes, but remember you can end the suffering of your dog, which is more than you can for a human,
Comment by Joan on May 25, 2009 at 9:14pm
Hi Matt,

Just wanted to let you know that you have my sympathy. I know how much I love my pugs, and the thought of losing them tears me apart. I thought that I was going to have to put my Toby down last September due to a back injury. But thank God he recovered with steroid thearpy. I know how these little guys (and girls) own our hearts. My thoughts are with you and my heart goes out to you.

Take care,

Comment by Pam & Pugs :0) on May 25, 2009 at 9:39am

The Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here,
that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so hey can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals that had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor.
Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again,
just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing;
they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together,
but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance.
His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group,
flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet,
you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again.
The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head,
and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet,
so long gone from your life but never absent from you’re heart. Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together.... Author Unknown
With Pug Hugs,
Pam & Pugs :0(
Comment by Cheryl Washington on May 25, 2009 at 6:31am
Matt you have to know in your heart that you did the very best for your little guy. It takes a strong person to know when to stop the suffering for you best furry buddy. I know that people say that if you have more pups at home it will ease your loss and it does to a certain degree but when you lose your furry friend it leaves a huge hole in your heart that eventually won't be so hard to get past. I had to put down my first bulldog on January 12, 2009 and she wasn't even a year old. Due to neglect, and my not knowing about puppy brokers I received a very sick little girl in June of 2008. All the problems that I received with her I was able to clear up with antiobiotics however by the time she presented with severe hip dysplasia and x-rays were taken my girl's fate had already been drawn out. It was so hard to let go of my Bella, I wasn't ready and was very angry that she was going to be taken from me at such an early age and making that decision was truly the hardest decision I have made to date in my adult life, but my little girl was in so much pain even with pain killers, that I couldn't stand to see her suffer even though I was a total mess at the thought of losing her. Bella had no options for surgery as her hip dysplasia was so severe that she had no hip sockets at all left. Bella had a death sentence from the day she was born. Since she started to walk her bones rubbed each other until there was litterally nothing left. If you met Bella you would never have known she was in any pain at all. She was such a strong, loving, playful girl that seeing her in pain was extra hard because I knew that it had to be very very bad for her to hold her breath because she was in so much pain. Months have passed and some days it isn't so bad but others it is like it happened yesterday. My thoughts are with you during your horrible time of loss but I am sure that your little guy is sitting anxiously waiting to see you again. I am sure if he was still alive he would be thanking you for being the best daddy he ever had. When I am having a hard time I think about my Bella playfully running through a field with a bunch of furry pals. Hugs to you!
Comment by Mary on May 24, 2009 at 6:42pm
July 3rd will be one year since my Sledgehammer collapsed and later passed at the emergency vet. Its like it happened yesterday. I relive that awful night all the time. I still cannot look at his pictures, and all his things, and his ashes are put away where I can't see it. I had 2 more of my own pugs and 3 fosters, yet my house seemed empty. I love them all, but he was my heart and soul. I always imagined him going peacefully, at home, in my arms an old man. That was not to be. I am so sorry for your loss, and the painful, yet selfless decision you had to make. I find you can always ramble to other pug lovers and not feel like you're crazy. I wish I could tell you it gets easier. I still am not sure the real reason he died.
Comment by julie foutch on May 24, 2009 at 3:55pm
When you have other pugs and you lose one as i did,it feels like part of you died and it hurts so much,it's like it hurts more as each day passes but,it did help me having my others around,or them helping me i should say,they stayed close to me,they would even lay close beside me,they became my strength ,it's hard to explain but,they gave me so much,i call them mommies angels,they have made my life so wonderful,even though that hurt is still there,i look at them and i know it's going to be okay,that we'll make it together as we all know the power of their love,it's something so rare and so precious,as i say in their love is strength.My very best to you,my heart goes out to you.Please take care.
Comment by Kevin Littlefield on May 24, 2009 at 10:44am
Matt i share your pain. On april 18,2009 had had to make the choice for my 8 yr old male Butler aka Bubba whom the Vets said there was nothing that they could do that would save him. at best it would only guve him a very short time. so short that he might not have even recovered fully from the surgery before that time came. Its onky been a little over a month now but it stills feels like yesterday to me and I still question myself. I miss him everyday when I wake up every morning when I go to work (cause I was lucky enough hIcould take him to work with me) and when it time for bed (missing him snore in my ear). I did the same I buried him I him the hills above the house so I could look and see him. I also have adopted 2 new puppys another boy named Thomas and a little girl named Raevin and your very right it doesnt make it any easier. But take the awsome love of your 2 girls and love them just the same a they they will get you through the roughest of times Because we all know the power of PUG LOVE. my best wishes

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