On April 4, I made the decision to not allow the suffering of my male pug Rycher to even begin. I've always said that I wasn't going to be like most people and keep him hanging on because I didnt want to let go. I've never understood why people do that. But I do now. Essentially what I did was took his pain and brought it on to myself. I thought I was ready to do that. Man was I wrong. It literally brought me to my knees. Its now been almost 2 months and its still very raw. Some people say I did it to soon and some days I question it myself. But I spent everyday for the past ten years with him and I know I made the right decision for RYCHER. Not for me, not for anyone else. For Rycher. I hope I never have to do that again. It would be nice if they always died of natural causes at home in their sleep. But if that means they have to suffer to get there I will make the same decision again. I still have my females Rylee and Cassie who I thought would help make the loss a little easier. WRONG. It dosnt. But I'm glad I still have them. Built Rycher a nice box and gave him a good burial and said goodbye. Man how I miss him right now. Thank You for this website and allowing me to ramble on incoherantly.
Thank you everyone for all the kind words. It was wrong of me to say that my females havnt helped me through this loss. Honestly I was one of those people that would say "OMG its just a dog." But once it was one of mine my eyes were opened. We are doing the things again that we did when they were puppys. And I now have so much appreciation for every day we get to spend outdoors in the sun. And my relationship with them has grown even stronger. I am realizing that even though Rycher was one of those dogs that come around once in a lifetime, Rylee and Cassie are unique and beautiful in there own way. I will never take that for granted again, EVER. Thanks all.